Thought I’d share my journey on becoming a yoga teacher with you guys. No guides or how-to’s this time, just you and me and this screen between us.
The training is booked
I booked the flights and now I’m patiently waiting for my passport renewal appointment. After the appointment I will have to wait six(!) more weeks to get it and then be able to process the Indian visa. Thankfully, one can apply for it online up to four days before the travel date, so I hope the timing works.
It’s an exciting time! I received a list of books I need to read before the training begins and was recommended to begin waking up early and practicing yoga and meditation at least 4 times a week. The waking up early part is still in progress, but I did begin reading two books out of the six in the list.
I’m also reading a third book with my bestie of besties from Mexico. We exchange Whatsapp audios almost every day and it seems we have now unofficially started a book club. Added to that is the training for the Frankfurt Relay Marathon which takes place in two weeks – I’ll be running the first part (12,9km/8 miles) – AND I’m studying for a Certification I need for work.
Since I have a full-time job, it means I’m in the office until 6pm, leaving me with about 4 to 5 hours to go for a run, practice yoga and meditate, have dinner, prep lunch for the next day, read a bit of everything and have a bit of quality time with the boyfriend before going to sleep (how do working moms do it?!). Yes, yes, I could wake up earlier and do yoga then, but I still, can’t, manage! It is sooo dark in the mornings now, the sun doesn’t rise until 7:15 or so. And being a heavy sleeper, I need 8+ hours of sleep. So yes, lots to do in my to-do list and zero will power. Maybe it’s the change of seasons? If Frühlingsmüdigkeit is real, is there such a thing as Herbstmüdigkeit?
I’m not sure but I do feel the pressure sizzling. Not exactly what I had expected on my journey to becoming a yoga teacher… I remember when I first started regularly attending yoga classes, wondering how was it possible that my teacher was still hung up on her ex, didn’t have a place to live and would eat snickers in class. I mean, doesn’t she know they’re not organic?! (not that I don’t eat snickers myself, yum!) Why didn’t she have her shit together? She’s a yoga teacher! Oh, little naive and judgmental me…. Now here I am on this journey, being humbled and grounded by my own self-criticism. The thing is, regardless of whether you’re Beyoncé or the Dalai Lama or a Teacher (any kind for that matter) – we are all doing the best that we can!
Getting grounded, letting go
In honor of letting go of all the pressure, self-criticism and judgement, I leave you here with a very fitting and helpful exercise from Louise Hay’s You can heal your life (the third book I’m currently reading – thanks bestie!)…
“As you read this, take a deep breath and, as you exhale, allow all the tension to leave your body. Let your scalp and your forehead and your face relax. Your head does not need to be tense in order for you to read. Let your tongue and your throat and your shoulders relax. You can hold a book with relaxed arms and hands. Do that now. Let your back and your abdomen and your pelvis relax. Let your breathing be at peace as you relax your legs and feet. Is there a big change in your body since you began the previous paragraph? Notice how much you hold on. If you are doing it with your body, you are doing it with your mind. In this relaxed, comfortable position, say to yourself, “I am willing to let go. I release. I let go. I release all tension. I release all fear. I release all anger. I release all guilt. I release all sadness. I let go of all old limitations. I let go, and I am at peace. I am at peace with myself. I am at peace with the process of life. I am safe.” Go over this exercise two or three times. Feel the ease of letting go.”
― Louise L. Hay,
P.S. Oh yes, in case you were wondering, the capsule wardrobe project is still in progress. Slow progress, but progress after all.